Oh yes, I feel your pain. I have a harder time writing when I have to be all surface and no depth; blandness silences my muse.
I'll give you a few things here and hope they will help.
1. A hug. You sound like you need one.
2. A small challenge. Use the word "deregulatory" in your next five lines that you write. Doesn't matter how you get it in there (dictionary definition, news broadcast, headline on newpaper, whatever). Just use it, 'cause it's a funny word. And if you're brave enough, post the excerpt!
3. Have the fight...on paper. Write a letter to the super, and it does not have to be grammatically correct or even logical. Rant. Rave. Throw a screaming hissy fit if that's what you need to break out of the surface mold. Then, tonight, after you have moved on from the letter to the script because the mental blocks have dropped like xenon-filled balloons, you can quietly and calmly shred/burn the letter if you want.
Or hey, add it to your portfolio of writing. It'll make a great conversation-starter later on!
Good luck!


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